Friday, March 22, 2013

26.2 miles

The Marathon is complete. I spent almost four months wondering what the hell i was doing and not sure if i really could ever see the end. Once I got to the point in training where I could envision it, I would start to tear up thinking about it while I ran. I was so engrossed in the training. I have said it became my second job, but it really was tied for first with parenting and running the business. No matter how freezing or how much sleep I did not get, we were out there running before the sun came up. It hurt and felt amazing all at the same time. All until my ankle tendons (posterior tendonitis) started acting up. It was so bad that I had to bow out of most of my training in the last four weeks. I was terrified. I was scared that if I didn't run I would fail and if I did, would it get so bad that I couldn't run the marathon. After self diagnosing, I finally went to the real doctor to confirm my suspicions and get a plan together so I could heal and make it through that race. There was no way I put that much time, energy and emotion into this and not running this race. I had a wonderful physical therapist who was actually using a new technique for runners and he really helped my confidence. He said that as long as I didn't have any time expectations, that I should go ahead and run. I'm not sure I ever really had any time expectations anyway so I went for it. I was feeling really good the week leading up to it. I think my low expectations really helped. I kept saying I just would like to finish under 5 hours thinking that would be me walking a lot and really in my mind I thought if I felt good, I would prob do around 4:30/4:45 since it was "rolling" terrain (which by the way, it was hilly not rolling). I didn't get nervous until the day before and I had so much nervous energy but it was different than any other race. I was SO excited. I could not wait to get out there to see what my body was willing to do. I popped out of bed at 4:30 am and ingested all of my energy items and set out in the freezing cold to pick up a couple of friends and get to the race. By the time we got out of the car it was snowing and cold but I was so happy to be there. We waited in warming tents while they delayed the race 15 minutes...ugh. I had decided to use the 10 min pace group to try and not overdo it in the beginning. I felt amazing. Most of the first six miles were up hill to the biltmore house but it was all good. Then once I got to the top and saw the house I saw my momma standing there waiting for me. She ran around the house with me and we just looked at each other beaming love. She is a huge part of my cheering team. She helped with my little girls on the early mornings that Danny had worked late and she would never fail to tell just how proud she was of me. Thanks mom. I got choked up about four times from either a song that came on or getting to the top of the hill and the snow glistening in the sun just right. I've never felt happy running like that. I was definitely on a race high feeding off the energy of the people around me. Things started to get a little hairy around mile 9 when I had to pee so bad and every time I would see a port a potty - 1 port a potty - there would be a huge line and after waiting 30 seconds, i would take off hoping to see more. Finally around mile 11 I saw a clearing among some bamboo and I just peed. Again, still feeling no pain and super happy I crossed the bridge to the other side of the biltmore grounds that people are not usually allowed on. I was not exactly prepared for it all to be trail. I love trail running but it is tough. Lots of hills and gravel. And oh my gosh, SO MUCH FREEZING COLD WIND! I think it was 12 degrees with the wind chill. I definitely started to fade around mile 16 and at mile 19 I could no longer run up hill so I would walk on the up hill and then keep trucking. Around mile 10 I saw a stand with water, gel, oranges, and coca cola? I couldn't really understand why that would be there but at mile 20 I took a shot of coca cola hoping it would do something magical. Danny called my phone as I was walking up a hill on mile 19 making sure I was ok because they were waiting at the bridge in the freezing cold hoping I was somewhere close. The next 2 miles felt like forever to get to them. My legs started cramping which I had never experienced and I thought it might be the end. I tried to stop and stretch but it just seemed to get worse so I kept running and it went away. I crossed the bridge and hugged my man and got a jolt of energy to begin running the last six miles. flat and freezing out and back. Brooke was there and started running with me with her big fancy camera and her street clothes which was awesome. I don't think she planned to keep going even though she had offered but she ended up running the last 6 miles with me listening to me go in and out of crazy(she is just that amazing of a friend). My ankles were screaming in pain and I would go between desperately wanting to walk (which I would do in spurts)and then needing to run fast to get it over with. Finally, after the course made us run past the finish line and around for a last bit of torture...I crossed the finish line with a time of 5 hours 1 min and 48 seconds. I was so close to my goal but honestly I am just so happy to have completed the marathon as a runner and not injured and walking or pulled off the course:). I saw Danny, grabbed him and wept. Not uncontrollably but the culmination of all that work and then the realization of it actually being over was just such a wonderful feeling. My friends and family that stood out there on the coldest day of the year might have actually had the hardest job. It was ridiculous and I wasn't aware of just how ridiculous it was until i wasn't running anymore. I was pretty sure that I would never do it again and was really excited to only sign up for half marathons from here on out. I was SO sore the day after and my ankles felt as though I might have done permanent damage. A day later, I had no pain whatsoever! crazy. So...I started researching which marathon I will run next year:)

Friday, March 8, 2013

16 months...

So my girl is 16 months old and turning into a little person with a very big mouth and still a lot of charm! She understands pretty much everything we say and she says A LOT without really saying much. It sounds like mama and dada for everything. She definitely says hi and it's adorable. But just yesterday she said the word bubbles which I couldnt get enough of. a real word that has nothing to do with food!!!! She is a happy smiley little monkey though watch out if she is not getting her way...geez. She loves to run around and twirl in circles when music is on...and twirl and twirl and twirl...right now she trying to push 4 teeth thru her poor gums which has forced me to put a baby for sale sign up in the yard. Between the crankiness and her affinity to wake up at 5 am (4:45 today) we are going to need a sit down moment and talk this out:). Momma needs her beauty sleep - for real. Good thing she is so stinkin cute and I love her to pieces.

Saturday, February 9, 2013

The very bright side.

Well today would have been my last super long run before the race. Today 20, next week 16, the next 10...and then the big race. BUT, due to both my ankles having tendons on the brink- I have chosen (after being advised by a couple if very wise marathoners) to sit out and try to rest them. As hard a decision that was to make, I cannot tell you how absolutely lovely it's been to wake up with the girls and help Elliot get ready for cheer mini camp. Yep, that's what I said. It's her first and I'm not positive she knows what it means but she is so excited and I am more than excited to be able to watch. I am certainly not pushing cheering on her but I wont lie and say that it won't be completely adorable.

Saturday, January 19, 2013

6 weeks until AVL Marathon

This was our view at dawn. Beautiful start to an 18 mile run that took us from clt to beaverdam to Woodfin to riverside to biltmore to merrimon to Murdock back to clt. It felt better than last weeks 18 run but still hurts. I made the mistake of looking at myself in the window of a building around mile 16...not quite as cool as I thought I looked (kind of like an old person) It's rough. But the recovery gets faster each week. Next week we are headed to Disney so I'm taking a "break" and only running 13 before I go. I wish I had started documenting my training 12 weeks ago when I could barely finish the "break" run I'm doing next week (avl 1/2 marathon course). Of course we did it backwards to make it interesting, as if it wasn't hard enough:). Lots of physical improvement. It's the emotional breakdown now.